darkest hour

i loathe it this way.

there were efforts poured down into it. the huge one that i myself couldn't measure it. it was a perfect willingness. it was dialed exactly at the right time while walking through this life. and i was open to commit myself to it.

albeit it gave me a real harsh time, i just had to learn the hard way. it should be vanished but i knew it wont happen. NEVER.

until now,
it keeps haunting me. and always, this indescribable feelings creeps on me.

im made to feel worthless.